Monday, May 31, 2004
Choices are tough!
I'm faced with a ton of choices!And since I'm currently in one of those 'God's plan vs. free choice' or 'Predestination vs. Free choice' thought process modes, it's tough. (Does God have a plan set out for my life, or am I predestined to want to do what God wants me to do (career wise). Most of the choices surround education. I've switched to a two year program at Bible College for reason which include- the boredom of bible college, not wanting to go into full-time ministry this young, not sure if it's really my calling, and wanting to go to school at home to be near my friends.
Of course what I'm learning this summer is that my friends won't be around forever, or at least not in the way they used to be. One's getting married, one's moving to a different continent and others are changing as well. Going, to school, getting jobs. I guess i've always been afraid of change, I like things the way they are.
Well, back to school. So I was planning on taking a two year program at slc brockville for child and youth worker. But the other day I was looking into correctional officer (prison guard) and it looked really intresting (I have a cousin who used to be one and he always has crazy stories about it). An then a kinf of wierd thing happened today, maybe a sign, probablly a coincidence, while at work on the paper line, about 20 blue prints for different ontario jails went across the line (we thought about selling them to the mafia). It was just kinda wierd since my mind was dwelling on whether to work in the prison system or with youth, and then these prison blue prints float on by me.
Then there's always university, which I've avoided like the plague, but I have the marks to get in. I could do it. I just don't know if I want to. I'm I afraid to be challenged? afraid of the change? I don't know! I just don't want to wake up one day and regret avoiding a challenge for an easy way out.
now the final angle on all of this: money!
I get have of the cost paid for by my parents, but only for four years. So if I go the 2 years Bible college, 2 years child and youth worker, I would actually save money (because of the two years in brockville). If I could 2 years for correctional worker, It would cost more cuz it's in kingston, but i'd still be alright. Uni would be a lot more.
And one final thing, Theres is still time to apply to St. L. this year, for either program. So I could just stick with the one year Bible College I got now, and be done in two years.
I guess why i'm typing about this is so that you guys can pray for me, that God will reveal this, or at least give me a hint. And if you guys have any advice and/or a divine message, please let me know.
choices- there not as good as pizza pockets!
Of course what I'm learning this summer is that my friends won't be around forever, or at least not in the way they used to be. One's getting married, one's moving to a different continent and others are changing as well. Going, to school, getting jobs. I guess i've always been afraid of change, I like things the way they are.
Well, back to school. So I was planning on taking a two year program at slc brockville for child and youth worker. But the other day I was looking into correctional officer (prison guard) and it looked really intresting (I have a cousin who used to be one and he always has crazy stories about it). An then a kinf of wierd thing happened today, maybe a sign, probablly a coincidence, while at work on the paper line, about 20 blue prints for different ontario jails went across the line (we thought about selling them to the mafia). It was just kinda wierd since my mind was dwelling on whether to work in the prison system or with youth, and then these prison blue prints float on by me.
Then there's always university, which I've avoided like the plague, but I have the marks to get in. I could do it. I just don't know if I want to. I'm I afraid to be challenged? afraid of the change? I don't know! I just don't want to wake up one day and regret avoiding a challenge for an easy way out.
now the final angle on all of this: money!
I get have of the cost paid for by my parents, but only for four years. So if I go the 2 years Bible college, 2 years child and youth worker, I would actually save money (because of the two years in brockville). If I could 2 years for correctional worker, It would cost more cuz it's in kingston, but i'd still be alright. Uni would be a lot more.
And one final thing, Theres is still time to apply to St. L. this year, for either program. So I could just stick with the one year Bible College I got now, and be done in two years.
I guess why i'm typing about this is so that you guys can pray for me, that God will reveal this, or at least give me a hint. And if you guys have any advice and/or a divine message, please let me know.
choices- there not as good as pizza pockets!
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Pet Peeve
This next post is somewhat is response to a comment posted Here
I would like to point out a little pet peeve about what people tend to do. They tend look at churches or schools and say 'everyone is white, theres not much multi-culuralism here". What if I looked at a room full of people who are brown and say "everyone's brown, theres not much multi-culturalism here". When in fact I could be looking at some italians, brazilians, muslims, Hindu's and many other people goups. The same is true for white people. Theres is a grat difference between Russians, Italians, English, Irish, Scottish, Swedish, Dutch and many other goups. Often times a room full of white people is just as deverse as a room full of multi-coloured people. So please (everyone), Don't clump white people together as one people group. It's not racial hate, it's racial ignorance.
I would like to point out a little pet peeve about what people tend to do. They tend look at churches or schools and say 'everyone is white, theres not much multi-culuralism here". What if I looked at a room full of people who are brown and say "everyone's brown, theres not much multi-culturalism here". When in fact I could be looking at some italians, brazilians, muslims, Hindu's and many other people goups. The same is true for white people. Theres is a grat difference between Russians, Italians, English, Irish, Scottish, Swedish, Dutch and many other goups. Often times a room full of white people is just as deverse as a room full of multi-coloured people. So please (everyone), Don't clump white people together as one people group. It's not racial hate, it's racial ignorance.
The monotony of it All!!!
Well, work is starting to get to me, it's just so s...l.......o............w and repetitive repetitive repetitive.
The only good thing about it is that it gives me time to think and imagine. I've started up several companies in my head, one of which I might actually try to do. Also, through these companies (in my head) I've been able to give my friends jobs and pay them way more then the jobs r worth (like 20 bucks an hour for a friend who was a cashier). and then I also fired some of them just for kicks.
Today at work, I think I saw the lowest thing I've seen in a while (not that I'm judging anyone). I work in a recycling plant, they dump paper and cardboard from garbage trucks onto the floor and then we process it. I saw a guy (who I work with) pick up some cigarette packages from the floor and open them to see if there were any fags left. Pretty sick if you ask me!
but then again you didn't!
The only good thing about it is that it gives me time to think and imagine. I've started up several companies in my head, one of which I might actually try to do. Also, through these companies (in my head) I've been able to give my friends jobs and pay them way more then the jobs r worth (like 20 bucks an hour for a friend who was a cashier). and then I also fired some of them just for kicks.
Today at work, I think I saw the lowest thing I've seen in a while (not that I'm judging anyone). I work in a recycling plant, they dump paper and cardboard from garbage trucks onto the floor and then we process it. I saw a guy (who I work with) pick up some cigarette packages from the floor and open them to see if there were any fags left. Pretty sick if you ask me!
but then again you didn't!
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
I Love this Frickin' book!
So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. And who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool? Yet he will have control over all the work into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. For a man may do his work with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then he must leave all he owns to someone who has not worked for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless.
A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
A lot can be taken from and studied from this passage, but I guess what reall catch's me at this moment is the last part; "to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind."
I am materialistic. I try to justify it, but that doesn't change the fact that I have a list of DVD's stored in my head which I am going to purchase, along with various toys and gadgets i wanna pick up along the way. All this along with trying to save money for school means squeezing as much money out of my small paycheck as possible. I've never tithed, never.
why do we live in such a consumerised society? why can't I give up all my non essintial items? I've heard people talk about how it's ok to own things and have money we just have to put Christ first, but; "Matthew 6
Treasures in Heaven
19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
22"The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. 23But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
Do Not Worry
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"
and another thing before I head to bed. Whenever we (all of us) see somthing bad like famine or war or disease, we always say how someone should do somthing. We talk about wealth distribution or equal treatment and just leave it at that, as if the rich should be the ones helping. well, guess what, we, the north american middle and even working class... WE ARE THE RICH OF TODAY! We have the wealth, we have the power, and we leave it to someone richer.
I dunno, it's bed time
C'ya all later.
A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
A lot can be taken from and studied from this passage, but I guess what reall catch's me at this moment is the last part; "to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind."
I am materialistic. I try to justify it, but that doesn't change the fact that I have a list of DVD's stored in my head which I am going to purchase, along with various toys and gadgets i wanna pick up along the way. All this along with trying to save money for school means squeezing as much money out of my small paycheck as possible. I've never tithed, never.
why do we live in such a consumerised society? why can't I give up all my non essintial items? I've heard people talk about how it's ok to own things and have money we just have to put Christ first, but; "Matthew 6
Treasures in Heaven
19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
22"The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. 23But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
Do Not Worry
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"
and another thing before I head to bed. Whenever we (all of us) see somthing bad like famine or war or disease, we always say how someone should do somthing. We talk about wealth distribution or equal treatment and just leave it at that, as if the rich should be the ones helping. well, guess what, we, the north american middle and even working class... WE ARE THE RICH OF TODAY! We have the wealth, we have the power, and we leave it to someone richer.
I dunno, it's bed time
C'ya all later.
Clash Monday's
Well, it's been awhile and it's actually tuesday (it was a stat) but here we go again!
The Sex Pistols may have been the first British punk rock band, but the Clash were the definitive British punk rockers. Where the Pistols were nihlistic, the Clash were fiery and idealistic, charged with righteousness and a leftist political ideology. From the outset, the band was more musically adventurous, expanding their hard rock & roll with reggae, dub, and rap rockabilly among other roots musics. Furthermore, they were blessed with two exceptional songwriters in Joe Strummer and Mick Jones, each with a distinctive voice and style. The Clash copped heavily from classic outlaw imagery, positioning themselves as rebels with a cause. As a result, they won a passionately devoted following on both sides of the Atlantic. While they became rock & roll heroes in the UK, second only to the Jam in terms of popularity, it took the Clash several years to break into the American market and when they finally did in 1982, they imploded several months later. Though the Clash never became the superstars they always threatened to become, they restored passion and protest to rock & roll. For a while, they really did seem like "the only band that mattered."
The Sex Pistols may have been the first British punk rock band, but the Clash were the definitive British punk rockers. Where the Pistols were nihlistic, the Clash were fiery and idealistic, charged with righteousness and a leftist political ideology. From the outset, the band was more musically adventurous, expanding their hard rock & roll with reggae, dub, and rap rockabilly among other roots musics. Furthermore, they were blessed with two exceptional songwriters in Joe Strummer and Mick Jones, each with a distinctive voice and style. The Clash copped heavily from classic outlaw imagery, positioning themselves as rebels with a cause. As a result, they won a passionately devoted following on both sides of the Atlantic. While they became rock & roll heroes in the UK, second only to the Jam in terms of popularity, it took the Clash several years to break into the American market and when they finally did in 1982, they imploded several months later. Though the Clash never became the superstars they always threatened to become, they restored passion and protest to rock & roll. For a while, they really did seem like "the only band that mattered."
Saturday, May 22, 2004
The Water Wolf
Tonight I went fishing for the first time this year. I was opening to have a yummy meal off spring pike, but I was eluded by the cuning of the water wolf. But have no fear! He'll be on my plate before the summer is done.
I got some decent size bass (the fish, not the instrument) which are of course out of season, but i'm sure i'll find time to eat them as well!
If you haven't started fishing, get going! It's the perfect time of year to fish from the shore!
I got some decent size bass (the fish, not the instrument) which are of course out of season, but i'm sure i'll find time to eat them as well!
If you haven't started fishing, get going! It's the perfect time of year to fish from the shore!
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Death to Chad!
This was originally meant to be a comment on chads blog, but I got on a rant and decided to make it a full blown post!
whoa Whoa WHOA!!!
'Uncommited'?!? your calling me an 'uncomitted' blogger?!? you can kiss my ass son! I post at least once a week if not more, maybe some one forgets what it's like to have a job.
OK, I went too far with that one, but seriously, don't judge me. Why are christians always the first to judge?!? (it's kinda like a paradox because i'm judging all christians, saying that they judge people. this makes me guilty of judging people, but because I'm a christian, it makes the original statment true. damn, I should be a writer or somthing!)
Oh and you wrote
"I found out today that pretty much my only hope of getting out of the rut I’m in financially is to win the lottery, or marry a dying rich woman."
What do you mean you 'found that out today?' what event happened to make you 'discover' this revelation? did you talk to your lawyer and that was his legal advice? if so, you should maybe find a new lawyer!
anyways, I plane on visiting you at mac's, maybe three am, make sure your only looking at the video game and fishing magazines!
whoa Whoa WHOA!!!
'Uncommited'?!? your calling me an 'uncomitted' blogger?!? you can kiss my ass son! I post at least once a week if not more, maybe some one forgets what it's like to have a job.
OK, I went too far with that one, but seriously, don't judge me. Why are christians always the first to judge?!? (it's kinda like a paradox because i'm judging all christians, saying that they judge people. this makes me guilty of judging people, but because I'm a christian, it makes the original statment true. damn, I should be a writer or somthing!)
Oh and you wrote
"I found out today that pretty much my only hope of getting out of the rut I’m in financially is to win the lottery, or marry a dying rich woman."
What do you mean you 'found that out today?' what event happened to make you 'discover' this revelation? did you talk to your lawyer and that was his legal advice? if so, you should maybe find a new lawyer!
anyways, I plane on visiting you at mac's, maybe three am, make sure your only looking at the video game and fishing magazines!
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Outbreak!!!!
So, new job-good.
time to do more fun stuff (although i'm much more tired when doing them)- good.
More money (i'm not a capitalist, but bible college doesn't pay for it's self)- good
Zits- bad! thats right, I've had on outbreak, in the forehead area of the big bad zits! It's really more like acne almost. I never got acne growing up, just the rogue huge mountain of a white-head just pulsing to erupt. but now I have an army of little red bastards, and one big one (i've popped it 3 times) leading the pack. I'm not sure if this outbreak is because of stress, or my new, dirty/dusty working environment. I've been showering twice a day, with no relenting on the part of the zits.
Personally I think it's God's way of reminding me of the fact that I'm not a man. Not a full man yet anyways. age 20 and the zits are back.
On a little side note- why is it that when girls get their periods (sometimes at age 9 and younger) they magically become women. But boys don't become Men until they pay their own bills, are out of the house and have a car and a dog. it just doesn't seem fair to me!
time to do more fun stuff (although i'm much more tired when doing them)- good.
More money (i'm not a capitalist, but bible college doesn't pay for it's self)- good
Zits- bad! thats right, I've had on outbreak, in the forehead area of the big bad zits! It's really more like acne almost. I never got acne growing up, just the rogue huge mountain of a white-head just pulsing to erupt. but now I have an army of little red bastards, and one big one (i've popped it 3 times) leading the pack. I'm not sure if this outbreak is because of stress, or my new, dirty/dusty working environment. I've been showering twice a day, with no relenting on the part of the zits.
Personally I think it's God's way of reminding me of the fact that I'm not a man. Not a full man yet anyways. age 20 and the zits are back.
On a little side note- why is it that when girls get their periods (sometimes at age 9 and younger) they magically become women. But boys don't become Men until they pay their own bills, are out of the house and have a car and a dog. it just doesn't seem fair to me!
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Breaking all the rules!
OH, you know I'm bad. Today at work, oh ya... I broke one of the rules!
So i'm feeling the need to relieve myself (number two) around 11, and I walk into the washroom, and there it is. A big whole safety sticker
"PLEASE DO NOT DEFECATE IN THE REST ROOM"
WELL... I had in mind to go right to the boss and say "well where exactly would you like me to defecate?"
but of course that would require backbone.
so I hold it in, I thought maybe I could sneak in at lunch,but with only a half hour lunch break, that place is packed! so... to make a long story short,about 3 hours, and two breaks later, I ran in there and had the world's quickest...you know what!
So i'm feeling the need to relieve myself (number two) around 11, and I walk into the washroom, and there it is. A big whole safety sticker
"PLEASE DO NOT DEFECATE IN THE REST ROOM"
WELL... I had in mind to go right to the boss and say "well where exactly would you like me to defecate?"
but of course that would require backbone.
so I hold it in, I thought maybe I could sneak in at lunch,but with only a half hour lunch break, that place is packed! so... to make a long story short,about 3 hours, and two breaks later, I ran in there and had the world's quickest...you know what!
Monday, May 10, 2004
Stuff
I have a lot to say, but not really, so i'll sume it up quick n' sweet.
I don't actually work at a 'dump' persay. I work at the recylcing plant.
Physical work is more rewarding then lets say, oh, working in a store, buit thats just my opinion.
I think that encounter/college and careers is the closest thing that I've seen to the early christian church (as seen in Acts). not saying it's perfect, but definatly geting somewhere. I'm glad that I will be a part of it this summer.
i'm sleepy, my bedtime is now between 9:30 and 10:30, if you can't understand that, then you probablly don't work hard enough at your job. just kidding... (or am i?)
oh and one more thing... 'blogger's' new layout for blog editing... SUCKS!!!
I don't actually work at a 'dump' persay. I work at the recylcing plant.
Physical work is more rewarding then lets say, oh, working in a store, buit thats just my opinion.
I think that encounter/college and careers is the closest thing that I've seen to the early christian church (as seen in Acts). not saying it's perfect, but definatly geting somewhere. I'm glad that I will be a part of it this summer.
i'm sleepy, my bedtime is now between 9:30 and 10:30, if you can't understand that, then you probablly don't work hard enough at your job. just kidding... (or am i?)
oh and one more thing... 'blogger's' new layout for blog editing... SUCKS!!!
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Unclean! part two
Well... tonight I got a phone call from drake international (which i THought only hiref people for temp work!). I know have a full time job, mon-fri 7-4, 9 bucks an hour. Not bad.
Wheres the job? The city dump! sure, not the prettiest place to work, but it's a job and i'll be making money!
I had to special order all my work stuff, size 16 work boots, extra extra large and tall coveralls. they'll arrive friday, and until they do i get to use my brothers size 13 steel toed shoes (so I'm gonna be in some serious pain.
but anyways, i'm working full itme again, i'll update you all if i'm still alive tomorrow!
Wheres the job? The city dump! sure, not the prettiest place to work, but it's a job and i'll be making money!
I had to special order all my work stuff, size 16 work boots, extra extra large and tall coveralls. they'll arrive friday, and until they do i get to use my brothers size 13 steel toed shoes (so I'm gonna be in some serious pain.
but anyways, i'm working full itme again, i'll update you all if i'm still alive tomorrow!
Unclean!
So the job hunt continues. GT is giving me part time and thats probably all they'll give me. So i'm out whoring myself to other companies, without much success.
I've probably handed out over 20 Resumes in the last 2 months, and every time you get a reply like, "we've already hired someone" or "oh, your a student? sorry we don't hire students" or you simply don't get a reply at all, it's a little piece of rejection that chips away at your self esteem until you end up feeling like a big pile of worthless crap. And does it help that your parents are bugging you, not every day but rather, every hour to find a job. No, no it does not.
No worries though, there is still hope. I've handed out more resumes, just waiting for the rejection to come, and I might try my hand at babysitting. and by the end of next week, if worse comes to worse... I'll be giving Burger King a call. yes... it has almost come to that... almost
I've probably handed out over 20 Resumes in the last 2 months, and every time you get a reply like, "we've already hired someone" or "oh, your a student? sorry we don't hire students" or you simply don't get a reply at all, it's a little piece of rejection that chips away at your self esteem until you end up feeling like a big pile of worthless crap. And does it help that your parents are bugging you, not every day but rather, every hour to find a job. No, no it does not.
No worries though, there is still hope. I've handed out more resumes, just waiting for the rejection to come, and I might try my hand at babysitting. and by the end of next week, if worse comes to worse... I'll be giving Burger King a call. yes... it has almost come to that... almost
