Tuesday, April 27, 2004
A Lament
bold added by me
For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts;
you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.
14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.
i think that if there's one thing that I never really got out of church that I ended up getting through bible college, it's the ability to really find what I need from the bible. For some reason I got the idea in my head that you could only worship (worship as a life style, not a form of music) God when you were happy, or at least joyfull in His presence. I didn't know that you could worship or honor God through anger and sorrow. Don't believe me? Read Ecclesasties (read the whole thing, right through to the end!) Solomon is clearly going through some messed up stuff, and may be at the bottom of his life, but what does he do? Writes a book which ultimately honors God , through Solomon's rough times. I'm not talking about going through a tough time and coming out with a smile and joyfull heart at the end. I'm talking about going through a rough time, coming and bruise, battered and missing a few teeth and still saying 'God I need you" and 'God you ways are just." I'm talking about that stronghold that seems to be with you your whole life and you still worship God, even though you can never seem to get it out of your life.
I'm not as naive as I was two years ago, I know that good times are coming, but so are bad. I know that this cloud may or may not pass, but either way, sunny days will come, as will darker ones. Living for God isn't about an emotion that you get at camp, it's not about feeling good. Often it's about feeling like shit and still letting God be in control.
The Bible is filled with morals for good living, rewards for those who receive grace through faith and the joy that God brings. It also has an equal (or greater) amount of suffering, pain, people who have not lived by the moral values set out and many hardships and things that most Christians would refuse to watch in a movie theatre (check out the entire old testament, more war, blood shed and sex of many kinds, then in your average rated R movie. Should Christians really be reading it?!?).
I'm not saying that we should just sin away, that notion is clearly against what the bible teaches. What I'm saying is that we are going to fall short of holiness, we are still called to strive towards it, and the journey and the Holy Spirit will refine us... slowly.
And worshiping God is not an emotion, honor him in those hard times... don't hold out for a good day or a good emotion, it may be to far away.
Don't forget your Christians brothers and sisters, they are there to help you and you are there to help them.
We're a body, a family, movement through history.
it's a good thing i'm not becoming a pastor, because that little speel went all over the place.
For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts;
you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.
14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.
i think that if there's one thing that I never really got out of church that I ended up getting through bible college, it's the ability to really find what I need from the bible. For some reason I got the idea in my head that you could only worship (worship as a life style, not a form of music) God when you were happy, or at least joyfull in His presence. I didn't know that you could worship or honor God through anger and sorrow. Don't believe me? Read Ecclesasties (read the whole thing, right through to the end!) Solomon is clearly going through some messed up stuff, and may be at the bottom of his life, but what does he do? Writes a book which ultimately honors God , through Solomon's rough times. I'm not talking about going through a tough time and coming out with a smile and joyfull heart at the end. I'm talking about going through a rough time, coming and bruise, battered and missing a few teeth and still saying 'God I need you" and 'God you ways are just." I'm talking about that stronghold that seems to be with you your whole life and you still worship God, even though you can never seem to get it out of your life.
I'm not as naive as I was two years ago, I know that good times are coming, but so are bad. I know that this cloud may or may not pass, but either way, sunny days will come, as will darker ones. Living for God isn't about an emotion that you get at camp, it's not about feeling good. Often it's about feeling like shit and still letting God be in control.
The Bible is filled with morals for good living, rewards for those who receive grace through faith and the joy that God brings. It also has an equal (or greater) amount of suffering, pain, people who have not lived by the moral values set out and many hardships and things that most Christians would refuse to watch in a movie theatre (check out the entire old testament, more war, blood shed and sex of many kinds, then in your average rated R movie. Should Christians really be reading it?!?).
I'm not saying that we should just sin away, that notion is clearly against what the bible teaches. What I'm saying is that we are going to fall short of holiness, we are still called to strive towards it, and the journey and the Holy Spirit will refine us... slowly.
And worshiping God is not an emotion, honor him in those hard times... don't hold out for a good day or a good emotion, it may be to far away.
Don't forget your Christians brothers and sisters, they are there to help you and you are there to help them.
We're a body, a family, movement through history.
it's a good thing i'm not becoming a pastor, because that little speel went all over the place.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Making my fortune
I'm back home, and of course the first thing I had to do was get a job.
For about a week I was one of those college student house painters, I never actually painted cause they didn't start till may. Instead I went door to door offering people free estimates. Apparently people don't like getting stuff for free. Here's an example
"Yes sir, I do realize that it is Saturday afternoon. Please remember that while you are loosing 4 minutes from your Saturday afternoon, This IS my Saturday afternoon... and kiss my fat hairy yellow ass!" of course that is an imaginary situation.
So I left that job before it really even started and now I'm at Giant Tiger, where since I've left, for the first time ever, they've hired way too many people in my department, so it's hard to say if I'll even get any hours. But we'll see.
I worked five hours today, I haven't worked since Christmas. Yah, I'm in suprisingly tired.
my brain, also is tired.
so that is all, for t o d a y...
For about a week I was one of those college student house painters, I never actually painted cause they didn't start till may. Instead I went door to door offering people free estimates. Apparently people don't like getting stuff for free. Here's an example
"Yes sir, I do realize that it is Saturday afternoon. Please remember that while you are loosing 4 minutes from your Saturday afternoon, This IS my Saturday afternoon... and kiss my fat hairy yellow ass!" of course that is an imaginary situation.
So I left that job before it really even started and now I'm at Giant Tiger, where since I've left, for the first time ever, they've hired way too many people in my department, so it's hard to say if I'll even get any hours. But we'll see.
I worked five hours today, I haven't worked since Christmas. Yah, I'm in suprisingly tired.
my brain, also is tired.
so that is all, for t o d a y...
Clash Mondays
Taken from here
"Their scalding self-titled 1977 debut set the tone. The songs, like "White Riot," were hard and fast. But listen closer. Through the maelstrom, Strummer and Jones dared kids to empower themselves, singing about the short shrift their generation had been given. Not content with mere provocation, they instead opened up a dialogue with their audience. Their music wasn't all punk, either. Like the hero of "(White Man) In Hammersmith Palais," they ventured into the unusual zones of reggae and rockabilly – and the sophistication of their playing hinted they were looking beyond the seething London suburbs."
"Getting into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame was only a matter of time; their acceptance by an industry they once brazenly indicted is a victory, no question. But the triumphant spirit was marred by Joe Strummer's sudden death in December. The Clash had never reunited. They never cashed in. Instead, they let their music continue to speak truth to power, sending young fans to dictionaries and newspapers, prodding listeners to question authority at every level. The Clash not only changed the world, they did it without once compromising their integrity."
Thursday, April 15, 2004
If ya can't beat em', kill em'. umm... or join them
FIRSTS
First job: Babysitting (Ya, people actually trusted me with their kids, ha ha ha)
First screen name: doug
First funeral: The goldfish from the picton fair, he died while we walked home (a 5 minute walk)
First pet:Blackie, the only good cat (all other cats are evil and should be ran over by cars and other vehicles)
First piercing/tattoo: what's it called? a prince something or other
First credit card: One day I'll get one, and then I can join the ranks of the e-bay greats! I too will make my living of ebay... one day
First kiss: kindergarden, back in the day when they wouldn't suspend you for kissing a girl
First one that mattered:A hot little redhead in grade 10 (redheads rock)
First love: food
First enemy: are w talking enemy as in someone i didn't like, or arch nemesis, cause theres a difference!
First big trip:these are dumb ass questions
First concert: i don't go to concerts
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Raffi baby, Raffi all the way
LASTS
Last car ride: I'm in college, I ride the bus
Last kiss: what kind of sick perverts make up these questions!?!
Last library book checked out: something on abortion (for my paper)
Last movie watched: cheaper by the dozen, my roommate rents nothing past pg-13
Last beverage drank: coke
Last food consumed: alpha gettis
Last CD played: I download everything
Last annoyance:this crappy ass, shitty quiz thing (why did I even bother to start it?!?)
Last soda drank: coke u dumb ass!
Last ice cream eaten: Someone left a carton of homer simpson cookie dough ice cream in the fridge, and i've been spooning away at that. I'm not sure if it taste good because it's homer simpson cookie dough, or because of the adrenaline rush I get when I steal a spoonfull!
Last shirt worn: 'I am BIG'
Last website visited: the blogger editing site
NOW
1) Single or Taken: is this some dumb ass high school thing?
2) Sex: it's overrated, keep your genital wards to yourself thank you
3) Birthday: march 3rd, and did you get me a present? no you didn't,
4) Sign: STOP (i kill myself!)
5) Siblings: 1 brother
6) Hair color: eat me
7) Eye color: pooh
8) Shoe size: 15
9) Height: 6'2"
RIGHT NOW, WHAT ARE YOU
1) Wearing: i'm naked, there, is that what you wanted me to say you PERVERT!!!
2) Drinking: yes, i'm drinking, cause it's 12 noon, i'm in my dorm in bible college and i'm an alchoalic
3) Thinking about: the end of this stupid piece of crap!
4) Listening to: Underoath (heavymetal hardcore)
5) Watching: How can I be watching somthing while I'm typing?!? I'm a man!!! I don't multi task
6) Feeling: hardcore
First job: Babysitting (Ya, people actually trusted me with their kids, ha ha ha)
First screen name: doug
First funeral: The goldfish from the picton fair, he died while we walked home (a 5 minute walk)
First pet:Blackie, the only good cat (all other cats are evil and should be ran over by cars and other vehicles)
First piercing/tattoo: what's it called? a prince something or other
First credit card: One day I'll get one, and then I can join the ranks of the e-bay greats! I too will make my living of ebay... one day
First kiss: kindergarden, back in the day when they wouldn't suspend you for kissing a girl
First one that mattered:A hot little redhead in grade 10 (redheads rock)
First love: food
First enemy: are w talking enemy as in someone i didn't like, or arch nemesis, cause theres a difference!
First big trip:these are dumb ass questions
First concert: i don't go to concerts
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Raffi baby, Raffi all the way
LASTS
Last car ride: I'm in college, I ride the bus
Last kiss: what kind of sick perverts make up these questions!?!
Last library book checked out: something on abortion (for my paper)
Last movie watched: cheaper by the dozen, my roommate rents nothing past pg-13
Last beverage drank: coke
Last food consumed: alpha gettis
Last CD played: I download everything
Last annoyance:this crappy ass, shitty quiz thing (why did I even bother to start it?!?)
Last soda drank: coke u dumb ass!
Last ice cream eaten: Someone left a carton of homer simpson cookie dough ice cream in the fridge, and i've been spooning away at that. I'm not sure if it taste good because it's homer simpson cookie dough, or because of the adrenaline rush I get when I steal a spoonfull!
Last shirt worn: 'I am BIG'
Last website visited: the blogger editing site
NOW
1) Single or Taken: is this some dumb ass high school thing?
2) Sex: it's overrated, keep your genital wards to yourself thank you
3) Birthday: march 3rd, and did you get me a present? no you didn't,
4) Sign: STOP (i kill myself!)
5) Siblings: 1 brother
6) Hair color: eat me
7) Eye color: pooh
8) Shoe size: 15
9) Height: 6'2"
RIGHT NOW, WHAT ARE YOU
1) Wearing: i'm naked, there, is that what you wanted me to say you PERVERT!!!
2) Drinking: yes, i'm drinking, cause it's 12 noon, i'm in my dorm in bible college and i'm an alchoalic
3) Thinking about: the end of this stupid piece of crap!
4) Listening to: Underoath (heavymetal hardcore)
5) Watching: How can I be watching somthing while I'm typing?!? I'm a man!!! I don't multi task
6) Feeling: hardcore
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Art
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Clash Mondays
Paul Simonon on learning how to play bass:
"It was sort of disappointing for me," smiles Paul. "I had these grand dreams of being Pete Townshend. I wanted to do this [pulls windmill shape] and smash guitars and all that stuff. So once I was handed the bass I thought, 'I'll just pretend I'm playing guitar'. Which is pretty much what I did from day one. I swung my arms around just like I was playing guitar. I just took one instrument and treated it like it was another one - not musically, but physically."
Paul also had a nice trick for learning quickly: "To simplify it for myself, I painted the notes on the neck of the guitar. So if Mick said, 'This song starts in D and then it's G and then it's F', I had it all there. I pretty much coloured the whole fretboard in. And after learning parrot fashion, it was only a matter of time before I could take the letters off."
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Girls are dumb
I was gonna write a post about how bible college has screwed me up, but i don't want this blog to become a home for Bible College bashing, and besides it's as much my fault as it is bible college's.
So on to more pressing matters...
GIRLS ARE DUMB
Now, when i make a statement like that, people think back to grade 3 with cooties and all that, and guys... I think we were on to somthing.
I mean really, like the fact that if you tell a girl that she's looking good, she'll say thanks, but then spent the next hour questioning whether you were serious or if your really a good judge of looks. And they always beat up on themselfs about thier looks, it's dumb. Me(I), on the other hand, was doing laundry today (and i mean all my laundry) so i spent the whole day in red swimming trunks, a maroon sweater vest, a green fishing hat,and a peach fuzz moustache, and I looked in the mirror and was like "damn! I'm hot". And I am hot!
And girls never say what they want or else they never know what they want!
I mean i want a house one day with a fish room and a bathroom/laundry sink in the basement!
and they're plain dumb!
If it wasn't for the whole sex thing, and geting my freak on, I don't know if I'd ever want to get married!
I mean it would be nice to have kids; twins, another kid and 1 or two adopted. all boys (girls are dumb) and then I would have my own offensive line, each kid would be 300lbs and would play in the cfl. thats 1500 lbs of McKenzie boys!
most of what i said tonight was out of anger or jest, but on the other hand most of it is true.
So tonight I will end with what thousands of men have cried out over thousands of years...
"God, why couldn't you have made me a eunuch?!?!?!?"
So on to more pressing matters...
GIRLS ARE DUMB
Now, when i make a statement like that, people think back to grade 3 with cooties and all that, and guys... I think we were on to somthing.
I mean really, like the fact that if you tell a girl that she's looking good, she'll say thanks, but then spent the next hour questioning whether you were serious or if your really a good judge of looks. And they always beat up on themselfs about thier looks, it's dumb. Me(I), on the other hand, was doing laundry today (and i mean all my laundry) so i spent the whole day in red swimming trunks, a maroon sweater vest, a green fishing hat,and a peach fuzz moustache, and I looked in the mirror and was like "damn! I'm hot". And I am hot!
And girls never say what they want or else they never know what they want!
I mean i want a house one day with a fish room and a bathroom/laundry sink in the basement!
and they're plain dumb!
If it wasn't for the whole sex thing, and geting my freak on, I don't know if I'd ever want to get married!
I mean it would be nice to have kids; twins, another kid and 1 or two adopted. all boys (girls are dumb) and then I would have my own offensive line, each kid would be 300lbs and would play in the cfl. thats 1500 lbs of McKenzie boys!
most of what i said tonight was out of anger or jest, but on the other hand most of it is true.
So tonight I will end with what thousands of men have cried out over thousands of years...
"God, why couldn't you have made me a eunuch?!?!?!?"
Monday, April 05, 2004
Used
Hey if you go to the new EBC website, and hit reload enough times, you might just see this.
Let's just say that they're lucky they didn't give me a write up sheet about living on dorm, or about the cafeteria food. If they did, the write up would have been VERY different!
OK, ok, so I'm a tool of the man, but everyone sells out every now and then. right? Right? RIGHT?
I have no ethics!
Let's just say that they're lucky they didn't give me a write up sheet about living on dorm, or about the cafeteria food. If they did, the write up would have been VERY different!
OK, ok, so I'm a tool of the man, but everyone sells out every now and then. right? Right? RIGHT?
I have no ethics!
Clash Mondays
I'm So Bored With the U.S.A.
Yankee soldier
He wanna shoot some skag
He met it in Cambodia
But now he can't afford a bag
Yankee dollar talk
To the dictators of the world
In fact it's giving orders
An' they can't afford to miss a word
I'm so bored with the U...S...A...
But what can I do?
Yankee detectives
Are always on the TV
'Cos killers in America
Work seven days a week
Never mind the stars and stripes
Let's print the Watergate Tapes
I'll salute the New Wave
And I hope nobody escapes
I'm so bored with the U...S...A...
But what can I do?
Move up Starsky
For the C.I.A.
Suck on Kojak
For the USA
