a rolling stone waiting to be set in motion

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I'm writing you from the lonely roberertson hall. When trying to find an internet computer on campus it is key find one as far away from the residence as possible, otherwise there will be a line up.

The journey home was good. Our church has changed a lot, it doesn't really feel like my church anymore. but maybe i'm just self centered and mis the lack of attention on me. (some one should say 'suck it up princess' around here). I guess our church is kind of a "mega church" (or at least what my school text books call a 'mega church'). I think I used to make fun of mega churches, but then again i make fun of everything.

Today was killer, but yours was probablly worse, so i won't go into it.

I finally got the prized G licence, and non to soon since in another 3 months they would have kicked me back to nothing. Now I won't need another test till i'm 80... sweet! then again i still have 3 to 4 to 5 to possibly more years of tests in schools... why do i do this? school is just a means to an end... I decided on university because it would help me get a job where i could help affect the most social change, in some small way. But what if I get corrupted along the way. Assuming i pass the nexxt four years... i may also have access to higher paying jobs.

will i sell out and leave my beliefs behind? stay tuned for the next episode
(i really am self-centred)

I'm coming back to brockville this weekend, which should be good times. My reason for going back is to take my driving test on monday (and i have a dentists appointment). I also realized that I have two projects due on monday, but they rn't too big, so it should be alright.

I'm kinda intrested in the new service, although I have to try and not be too judgemental cause I was heavily involved in the original "extra" service (for lack of a better name).

IN Psychology we learnt about the opponent-process theory, which is basically like if you have one emotion for an extended period of time that you are likely to have an opposite emotion for a similar amount of time. This can be seen in biological process of the body, but also with emotions. so an example he gave is like when you go on a date and you have an awesome time, you tend to have an emotional high, and when the date is over you tend to get somewhat depressed saying" I wish we we're still on our date" etc. He of course used broader examples afterwards like marriage and other stuff, and said how eventually things come back to thier resting or neutral state.

I found this interesting, it kind of reminded me of my relationship with God. That emotional high you have the first little while, whether it be weeks, months, or years. What we christian, with our christian jargon call "being on fire" (no wonder so many people find christians scary, they think we want to set theme a blaze!). Anyways, I know I had that time, and then came the not so good times. and now... hopefully... it starts to stable out. I don't know if i'll ever get "the fire" back, however I will say that when I had "the fire" it was probablly when I was the most annoying to other people around me, and probablly caused me to drive more ppl away. But I was young and that was back in the days.

ok, pictures of various stuff.

Christmas: Live Bird,, Dead Bird, Wants Bird, Family, Me

Chad's Moving Day: Chad's Window, Dishes, Someone relaxing after a long hard day of moving!

My Room: 1, 2

Ever have days when you just want to due away with and cut all ties to the human side of christianity? Sometimes it feels like if I were to give up on Jesus (which I have no intention to) then the people who r my friends would basically only come see me once a week to tell me that I need Jesus. Like me being christian validates thier friendship with me, and If I were to loose it then they'd no longer have a reason for the friendship.

Of course other times I just want to give up on the world and join a monestary.

I think it's time for another reading of Ecclesiastes


and why are so many christians against the Old Testament?

Well, the nazi's are gone but these TRUE CHRISTIANS have filled the gap pretty good. please visit the site and enjoy!

www.truechristian.com

This christian regime is much better then the other one currently trying to attack me. In fact, i've already forgotten the name of the other one, oh well!

Last night the cat attacked my bird again (the last time I came into my room and the bird was in the cat's mouth). This time the cat knocked the cage to the ground, But don't worry, the cat got the beats. I used to be a cat person but this cat has changed me. I'm still not really a dog person, I've only had one dog that I like, so I guess you could say that I'm a sheltie person, or else just a fish person.

So i'm back in school and had the first day classes and it strikes me... I had forgotten how many babes are here at carleton. I'm talking babes as far as the eye can see. I guess last semester I was so worried classes and doing well that I didn't have time to take it all in... but now... wow!

anyways, I also had some deep thoughts due to events during christmas break and my new job, and was gonna go on a long speel about it, but instead i'll just give you all the catch phrase that I came up with (i should have been a babtists).
As christians (or whatever you call yourself) should we strive to be culture relevant (as much of the emphasis seems to be in the christian version of 'post modernism, which is very different then the sociological definition of post-modernism) or should we strive to be culture changing?

so there you have it, whats more important? culture relevance or culture changing? can the two work together or do they work against each other?