a rolling stone waiting to be set in motion

I had a job interview today, it wasn't really an interview, she just said she was going to hire me and told me the basics about the job. Adterwards she went to a meeting and all the funds for her department were heavily cut so now she can't hire any students. So i have 4 days to find a job for the summer, after that i'm back to kitchener. If i don't find one it looks like 4 months of Giant Tiger... oh my! well, hopefully this was God's will and he'll work it out. inthe meantime

If anyone knows of any student type jobs for the summer (may-august) let me know!

I think the thing that continues to amaze me about God is His endurence in relationships. No matter how much I screw up, in new ways and old, He's still there, he's still waiting to fill me with Joy. As soon as a turn my eyes back to him and repent, He's right there. He's been there the whole time, waiting for me.

Thanks God

So i'm in one of my classes and the prof is teaching, we'll call him OP (just In case teachers find their way onto the web), and i have to be honest, the class is kinda boring, i mean it should be exciting, but i always end up writing notes or pulling practical jokes with John (I mean I'm in college, am I really supposed to still be getting a kick outa this stuff?). But anyways, we finally get to a question that I know, and this isn;t one of those "if you did the reading you'd know it" questions, it's one about paul and arguing specific point that say he didn't write certain letter, and I'm like "hey, I know the answer" and for the first time in my college life, I raise my hand for a serious question. HE picks a guy in the first row, but my answer is somewhat better, so I raise my hand again, he picks a guy on the other side of the class! ok, I'm still doing good, this other guy, was way off... this time the teacher looks at me, it's time for me to flex my brain muscles... but... wait... NO!!! he picks the guy in a row in front of me, by this time my answer as basically been said.

Lesson learned- raising your hand is a complete waste of time, which leads to a quote from Homer Simpson...
(Simpson purist, please forgive me if I'm slightly off) "Trying is the first step to failing"

Oh simpsons, is there any part of my daily life that can't be summed up in one of your quotes?!?

I've decided that this summer i must get myself a kilt! i've put it off for long enough.
I can't quit afford the top quality 100% cotton kilts, but there are some nice kilts mad with different fabrics which are lighter for half the price. best of all they come in the MacKenzie tartan! (my family colours)

SO this summer, if your driving through brockville, you may just see a man mowing the lawn with no shirt on and wearing a kilt... oh i think so!!!

With reading week only one week away, and April being around the corner (after march, which I'm sure will go by quickly) my thoughts drift to one thing,and one thing alone... summer!!!

Things I'm looking forward to this summer
- Weapons and poelmans (it's a dangerous combination, but it always leads to fun
- Fishing, pike season is around May 14th and I can't wait to be out on the bank to catch some spring pike!
- beaters and shooting contests! (I currently have to guns, a pellet/bb and soft air, I hope to add a pellet rifle and replica PP7 (Bond, James bond) BB gun to that collection
- MAN HOUSE (or apartment, depending on where we have it)
- Having money... now as a Christian money isn't really important, in fact if I join a monastery and become an ascetic monk(which i won't because I'm not Roman Catholic) I won't have have any money. But it's nice when someone invites you to Swiss chalet to be able to say "I'd love to" instead of "I don't really have any money" and wait for the awkward silence to see if they're willing to pay for you.

and finally- mowing my lawn with no shirt on... I've never actually done this but I think the neighbors would enjoy it indeed! At least I would! I should get a picture of that!

summer... I enthusiastically await your arrival

Well, it's been awhile but i'm posting again, mainly because i can't keep in contact with everyone from everywhere (especially that Chad poelman!).
Well, i would say that my life has changed quit a bit since coming to Emmanuel.
I've been going through some super crappy times, which of course cause reflection even though i'm not that analytical.

I guess the first 2 years in my Christian life were pretty good, not a lot of tough situations, I didn't really understand it at the time. I felt like I had a simple faith that hadn't been tested. I was pretty naive (did I spell it right) but sometimes I wish I could have those days again.

over the last three years or so things have been going crappy, like my dad getting sick and all of that, but since I got to college it's been getin' worse, like all the stuff going on at home, and the fact that I'm here. And me and my old g/f broke up a few weeks ago, but that seems like small peas now.

One of my best friends is going through a really hard time, he's more then a friend, he's a mentor and a brother.

But ya, i have changed alot and Gods showing me alot.
I no longer feel like worshipping God HAS to be a joyfully act. I've been having a hard time sitting through worship in chapel and at church because the music is always happy even when i'm not. I used to think that there was no way you were really worshiping God unless you were joyfully but this week in Old testie we read Ecclesiates. It really inspired me, which is weird for some people, but the fact that Solomon was able to worship God out of his despair and pain was really cool. it gave me hope.

Marriage
I no longer have any faith in the institution of Christian Marriage. I used to think that regular marriage was tough, but somehow Christian marriage is different, i don't think that way anymore. I think you can probably take any of the stats on regular marriage and place them in Christian marriage without much change. People say that marriage is between 3 people. The man, the woman and God, but God gave us free choice, so as much as I would like to believe that God would somehow make a Christian marriage work out no matter what, I know he won't. This isn't a fault of God, it's a fault of humans. If one person is determined to leave a marriage, even if they are being completely unreasonable and even sinful, they are still free to make the choice to destroy the marriage. For those of you not familiar with Christian marriage (the rules really apply to regular marriage too, but ppl don't know it) when a man and woman come together in marriage they become "one-flesh" (read Genesis in the Bible). So getting a divorce is like ripping apart a humanbeing. It's like killing this a person that God allowed into being (through marriage). So marriage in the end really is about a man and a woman, God is a part of it, but free choice still exists. it means that you have to be willing to put your faith into another person and of course people always fail. There really no way to know if a marriage is going to stay together, you can only hope and pray.

Because of the above I've also changed the way I look at my life. I used to think that I was getting married unless God very clearly and very specifically, called me to a life of celibacy.
Now I plan on being celibate my whole life unless God very clearly and very specifically calls me to get married to a specific woman.
Yes, life long celibacy is a legitimate and biblical practice for protestants. I could be an 80 year virgin, oh ya!


anyways, this is where i'm at right now, maybe next week I'll change my mind about everything and I'll be a Mac-daddy. Who knows.

but that's what i'm here to do, to learn, to change and to grow

that's it for now