a rolling stone waiting to be set in motion

So I went school shopping with my mom today. Even thought I'm 21 years old, she still finds ways to embaress me. We're picking up some extra underwear (a standard procedure) and she says 'extra large or extra extra large" I reply "I wear ftl extra large" (we've had this argument before, but I'm the one who knows whats on my ass). so she can't sccept my answer and ends up on hands on knees on the floor in walmart looking on the bottom shelf saying rather loudly "no no, you're an extra extra large, they must have some down here somewhere" (I have never seen walmart carry fruit of the loom in XXL nore have I ever worn any ftl in XXL).

I was going over my course outlines today (I got them online, still in brockville). Screw high tuition fees, the text books are where I'm getting raped this year! % classes= 14 textbooks? WTF? The whole system is a crock, and the prof's try to save us money by using bookstores off the university, so now I have to run around to 4 different books stores to get 14 books for 5 classes? what poopy cock!

I had to drop Hinduism. I was reading the outline and discovered that my entire mark would be made up of the final exam!!! (not a good thing) and plus there would be so many indian words to learn, that I decided to play it safe and swicth to a first year general overview of asian religions. should be good (includes hinduism, buddhism, and chinese religions, among others.)
I also realized that my social work statistics class will be tough. I actually have labs for it. I haven't done labs since grade 10!!! and there will be hardcore math... we;ll see what happens

My last week in brockville (give or take) and i'm looking forward to it. I have 5 midnight shifts (8-8) which suck, but also Am looking forward to breakfast at the Pybus' (?-pybuses, pybus's...?) and whoever else shows up. and Then man-night with the boys (the dutch ones anyways), and I think i was supposed to do somthing with kevin, but I can't remember what now. And anyone who wants to stop by block house around 1 AM sunday night- i'm having pizza (for me, but u can watch me eat it) cause it will be my last night at the block! A summer at Brockville's finest park is over... how sad!:( luckily one of my co-workers will be a block away from me so we will hang out.

thats all, nap time before work!

I can't wait to be in ottawa. Ok so maybe most of my life is spent waiting instead of doing, but I can't help it! Get me back to ottawa... this is the first time that i've actually been SICK of brockville. Maybe it's cause i'm a city worker and have to deal with the same little old ladies coming in every day and telling me that they saw 3 seperate piles of dog poop that I need to pick up... I DON'T CARE!!! and night shifts are fun... for about the first month. after that they're just a pain in the ass. I mean I'm usually anti-social in my personal time and am super social at work (sorta like manic-depressive but not to the same extreme) but now at work I spend a good 10 hours without human contact. left to my own imagination...i slowly grow crazy (or perhaps i'm becoming a genius... i'm not sure).

tomorrow i'm going paintballing- super cool. except that 21 years of unhealthy eating and a lack of excercise has turned me into a big slow target. Hopefully I can make up for it by hiding in bushes and trash talking.

last night A skunk was running around blockhouse. needless to say I spend most of the night indoors

so last night a group off teenage girls followed me around centeen while I cleaned the washroom and offered me sexual favours. Now I know that i'm good looking and all, but these girls didn't know me or anything about me, so for all they knew I was just a 300 pound janitor. Seriously, young girls sexuality makes me so uncomfortable. I scrubbed those toilets and got out of there extra fast (alchoal and 15-16 year olds hormones don't mix!).
anyways, only two more days of stupid night shift, then my exam, then two weeks of day shift and then another week of night shifts AND THEN I'M DONE!!!
I long for the life of a student again, lazing around all day, reading books...
I gotta go though it's supper (why don't they understand that when I wake up at 6pm I still want breakfast, no one can get that!)

Ok, so I've finally been able to regester for my new classes. There were a few classes that I wanted to take that were full (Social work: working with children and youth, and INtroduction to Marzist philosophy) and there were a few classes that were time conflisct so I couldn't take them (WOmen's issues [sociology] and Intro. to Buddhism). I was also considering taking Greek (cause i want to be able to read the bible in it's original language) but decided not to risk my gpa over it. so as of right now my classes are:

Structural Analysis and Social Work
Research Methods in Social Work
The Political Economy of Social Welfare
Introduction to Hinduism
Truth and Propaganda
Community Development and Social Change in an International Context (3rd year course)
Framing Contemporary Aboriginal Issues (I don't exactly of the prequesit for this, but hopefully the department will give me permission to take it)

Because two of my classes are on-line, I actually only have class three days a week. I have wensday and friday off both semesters (long weekend all year long, WHAT WHAT!!!)

Also this year I'll be living on somerset in china town (which is near little italy) So hopefully I'll be more 'cultured' and less ignorant by next summer, but I make no promises!

Has anyone been reading the papers lately? Some scary ass shit is going on. I think This Article scared me the most.

The profile also said suspects may display such characteristics as nervousness, an unwillingness to make eye contact, excessive sweating, or mumbling prayers or "pacing back and forth in front of a venue," the newspaper said.

The Post said the police chiefs' guidelines say an officer does not have to wait until a suspected bomber makes a move in order to use deadly force, but just needs to have a "reasonable basis" to believe that the suspect can detonate a bomb.
"The police standard operating procedure of addressing a suspect and telling them to drop their weapon and put their hands up or freeze is not going to work with a suicide bomber," Bruce Hoffman, a terrorist expert at the Rand Corp., told the Post. "You're signing your own death warrant if you do that."

Hopefully everyone now knows that police profiling is a rampant problem. And you mix that problem with this policy and you have a huge problem.
The characteristics of a bomber that they list could relate to many different types of people. Maybe a new immigrant who doesn't understand English and feels that the police have it out for brown people. A death person who could be confused. Someone dealing with schizophrenia or other mental disorders or any person on a bad day. It's a shoot IN THE HEAD first and ask questions later. The police force is hear to supposedly up hold the laws that we has a society see fit. Do they really have the right to implement policies like this without our permission? I guess the article does talk more about U.S. and London, but what happens if they make this a policy here? To me this is just part of the underlying problem with police in general.

Don't get me wrong, but why is it that one of the few positions in society that allows people to carry loaded weapons also requires the lowest amount of post-secondary education? To be a teacher you need 5-6 years university and teacher's college education. To be a police officer you need 2 years of community college. Whets up with that? I'm not saying that more post-secondary education is going to make your smarter, or any less likely to shoot someone in the head. But wouldn't you want people carrying loaded guns around you to have as much training as possible? I mean they need training in self defense, gun use, the law and should have training in other areas like different religious belief, working with people with mental disorders, and I'm sure many other areas that you can think off. I don't think that two years of community college cuts it. Anyways, that's just my point of view

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